Take My Life, I'll Hand It To You

[marley sophia rose]

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[phoenix eli harte]

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there's a wolf in my heart for you

[atrb=border,0,true] If Phoenix was being honest, he was pretty damn miserable. It was either pretty damn obvious or he was pretty good at faking it. He did not really know which one it was but right now he just kind of went through the motions. It was all he could do right now since he had no idea what his ex was doing, where she was or how the baby was as well. And that was driving him crazy. Of course he would just not talk about it. He would obviously deal with it just fine but to be honest he wanted to find the girl. That would never happen though. But right now it was time to wake up. He had to go get food for later since he was starting to run out and sometimes he was just starving. Also his kid was starving and he could not have that. That would most certainly get him thrown in jail. Luckily Max was over at his grandpa’s house, even though Phoenix really did not want that to happen more than it should. But his dad was really persistent so he had no choice. To be honest, he really did not want to leave his house. It was not because he hated the outside or anything like that but honestly Phoenix just wanted to curl up into bed and sleep the day away. It was rare that he did that and it was even rarer that he would want to do that but it came and went most of the time. Right now he really wanted to though. He probably should get some shit done before his kid came home tomorrow. And then he blew out a breath of air, realizing that Max was coming back home tomorrow. Believe it or not, Phoenix actually lived for that kid. With a stretch of his limbs he rolled out of bed and then immediately went into the bathroom to get cleaned up. It was nothing special really. He just brushed his teeth and then ran his hands through his hair with some gel and called it a day. Seriously that was all he did to get ready and it was nice if you asked him. Once he was dressed in a pair of jeans and a t shirt he threw on a pair of shoes and grabbed his hoodie before calling it a day. Seriously he could not wait until it got warmer outside. Snow was not his favorite thing in the world and the fact that they kept getting hit with it made him more annoyed than anything ever. Actually, that was probably a lie but hey nobody had to know about it right? That was what he figured. And when he arrived at the store he started to go through the isles, not even paying attention to what he was doing and there was a reason for that. He had noticed someone with faded pink hair, not that it was uncommon. But how many pink haired girls were pregnant? He only knew of one and she was standing a few feet away from him. He felt the air leave his lungs and he was frozen in the spot. He wanted to should her name but honestly he could not get his voice to freaking work. “Marley.” he said, wishing he did not sound so god damn pathetic but hey, whatever. TAGGED marley / amber<3 NOTES muah hah hah

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[marley sophia rose]

[/b] she spoke softly bringing her gaze to him then over at the shelf beside her trying to think of something to say that wouldn’t sound completely stupid she hadn’t exactly been the nicest person ever for the last little while but it was the only way she could keep her feelings in check lately. ’’You look good, how have you been?’’ she questioned gently offering him a weak smile before glancing back at the shelf awkwardly.
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[phoenix eli harte]

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there's a wolf in my heart for you

[atrb=border,0,true] It felt like the air had been hit out of his lungs. He could not find the breath in him and it was starting to suffocate. He had to remind himself to breath, breathing was definitely important. And she looked even bigger than he had remembered which was weird if he really thought about it. Of course he would not bring that up since she would probably punch him in the face if he did and he really did not need a broken nose. And she still looked good to him, although she could have cut off all her hair and splashed acid on her face and he would still find her beautiful. And to be honest he was not sure if that was pathetic or not but it was the truth. He was not sure what to say or what to do. Phoenix probably should have just let her get on with her business and figure out a plan or something. Of course he was just so shocked at seeing her here that he did the first thing and that was to call out to her. Now that he actually had her attention he had no idea what he was going to say. He wanted to say a lot but it was just how he should word it that was tripping him up. And that was even weirder since this was Phoenix after all. It was surreal. So he opened his mouth to speak and then closed it again and looked away at the first thing his eyes found and it was some random food in a can. Well he should grab it and just walk away since this was awkward as hell. Then he figured that maybe she wouldn’t even acknowledge him or something. It seemed like she was going to just look for an excuse to walk away and he probably would have let her since he was too nervous. He wanted to ask about the baby and he wanted to know if it was a boy or girl. There was a lot that he wanted to know but he was not sure how to ask it. She might even ignore his question and then that would make him feel even more like an idiot. God he was dumb wasn’t he? Maybe he was debating this too intensely and he needed to just get out with it. That could work couldn’t it? She then told him that he looked good and he looked back at her and then gave her a small smile. “You don’t look bad yourself.” he said then winced internally. Ugh really Phoenix? He then turned his lips into a thin line before asking his next question. “How is the um…how is the baby?” he was not sure if he could wait for her answer or not but gosh he really wanted to hear it. And he wanted to hear what she had been doing the entire time he wasn’t there and if she was seeing anyone else. But he figured that he would just ask one question at a time and then go from there. He really did not want to overwhelm her. TAGGED marley / amber<3 NOTES muah hah hah

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[marley sophia rose]

[/b] she teased reaching for something on the nearby shelf and tossing it into her cart. ’’Where’s Max? How’s he doing?’’ she added softly guessing since she hadn’t seen the toddler yet he most likely had not tagged along with his dad and she really missed him almost more then she missed Phoenix, even if she wasn’t his real mom she sure felt like she was most of the time. When he asked her about the baby she considered not telling him anything and she rubbed her stomach a little a more as she thought of what she should say. He deserves to know, Tony’s words echoed in her mind and she cursed herself for having run into him earlier in the week. He was right of course but she was stubborn and she was about to tell him everything especially since if he knew she was supposed to be in bed he would haul her their himself no questions asked. ’’The baby is fine, it’s a girl actually. Super active and kicking anyone who touches me’’ she smiled gently biting her lip as she glanced at her stomach then over at him. ’’do you want to um feel?’’ she questioned tilting her head slightly feeling more nervous then she probably needed to be.
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[phoenix eli harte]

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there's a wolf in my heart for you

[atrb=border,0,true] Even if this was one of the most awkward meetings of his life Phoenix was glad to have bumped into Marley. He missed her to pieces and it was probably obvious. He hated that she could read him like a book it really sucked when he was trying to hide something. Not that he hid much from the girl but there were a few things that he liked to keep private and she could always figure it out just by the way he moved. It drove him nuts sometimes and then other times he liked that she could do that. Not even his own mother could do that when she was still around. So he guessed that it was both a good and a bad thing but he was going to pretend that it was a bad thing. Mostly because he was still hurting about her leaving him all alone even though he tried to explain the situation to her. And he guessed that it went both ways because most of the time he could read her like a book as well, but right now he was having a hard time deciphering what she was thinking. Maybe it was just because he was hopeful that she would take him back. Maybe. He could not look away from that god forsaken bump. He wanted to, it felt like he was being really rude by just staring at it but he couldn’t. It was probably because it was crazy how much she had grown since he last saw her. It was beyond crazy and he needed to get a grip on himself. So he took a deep breath through his mouth and then exhaled through his nose before his brown eyes flicked back up to Marley. And then he felt even worse about causing all of this. Even though the situation was shittier than shit he had caused all of this. It was unintentional of course and he wanted to hit the person who decided kissing him was a good idea but it was what it was and there was no way to get away from it. So he supposed he should just suck it up and get a move on with his life. When she asked about where Max was he subconsciously looked over his shoulder even though he knew that the toddler was not going to be there. He supposed it was just habit. Then he shrugged his shoulders at her before answering. “He’s with his grandpa, unfortunately.” He could not help but let the distaste for that whole situation show in his voice but it was what it was and Phoenix could not say no to him. And it broke his heart when he kept asking for Marley and he couldn’t really answer his question without breaking the little kid’s heart. This whole situation was just one big clusterfuck and he wanted Marley to just come home so they could just stop this weird little thing they were doing. Of course she was stubborn so she probably wouldn’t agree to it but hey he could dream. Then she told him that she was having a girl and Phoenix grinned from ear to ear. So he was going to have a daughter? Wow, it was crazy to think that he was going to have a little girl. He also laughed when she said that the baby kept kicking everyone. Yeah, that sounded like his kid alright. There was no question that he was the father. It was kind of surreal the more that he thought about it but whatever. And then she asked if he wanted to touch her stomach and he bit down on his bottom lip. “Yeah, I think I do.” he told her, biting down on his bottom lip and hoping that his daughter would kick for him. He would probably flip out if she did but it would be a good kind of flipping out. He was so curious though if the baby would know that it was him and not some random stranger being a creeper. Maybe she would. TAGGED marley / amber<3 NOTES muah hah hah

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[marley sophia rose]

[/b] she offered with a smile. She watched his expression when she told him it was a girl and he looked as if he was a kid on Christmas morning which made her heart swell and ache all at once. She was lucky that she had gotten a guy who wanted this baby as much as she did but she had taken away the joy of it from him and she couldn’t help but feel awful over that as much as she thought he deserved it. When he agreed to touching her stomach she smiled gently taking a step towards him so there wasn’t very much space between them at all. Then she reached for his hand ignoring the electricity that pulsed through her at the touch before holding it against her stomach and feeling the baby kick where she had placed his hand. She winced slightly but kept her gaze on him waiting to see his expression.
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[phoenix eli harte]

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there's a wolf in my heart for you

[atrb=border,0,true] Phoenix finally felt himself calming down. The whole shock of this situation was finally wearing down and he was okay with this. Sure, maybe a grocery store was a little on the casual side of a meeting like this but it could have happened anywhere. And besides, maybe it was a good thing that it happened here right? They had always said that things happen for a reason. Although whatever the reasoning was for this little encounter was beyond him but hey, he really did not want to question it he supposed. Besides, at least here, if she went hormonal crazy there would be witnesses if she tried to murder him. Not that he thought she would but at least if she thought about it she wouldn’t do it. Then he scrunched his nose a little when she told him that Max liked being with his grandfather. Phoenix knew this and he did not want to admit that he hated it, but he really did. If he had any say Phoenix would cut off his father right from the start but he would probably find him. He had the money to do it and he really hated that about his dad. Why couldn’t he just butt into his brother’s life? Seriously. So he sighed and then nodded at her, although he really hated that she was right about that. He wanted Max to hate Phoenix’s dad as much as Phoenix did. “Yeah I suppose. I don’t like it but I’d feel bad telling him no.” he said with a shrug. Phoenix prayed to all that was holy that Max and him would never fight like he did with his own father. The thought alone just broke his heart and he really did not want that to happen with him. Or with his new baby girl but the way things were going now that might just happen. But having his hand on the baby, even if there were layers of skin and tissue in his way, was surreal. It was almost enough to just make him burst into tears, which is something that he didn’t really do often. Unless he was with Tony then he was laughing so hard he was crying most of the time but that did not count. But this moment, right here, he would cherish it forever. And when she kicked him his face lit up and his lips turned upward into a smile and he looked at Marley just completely flabbergasted about this whole thing. “She kicked me. That’s just…wow.” he really had no words to described what he was feeling. Everything was coming all at once and he had no idea how to decipher it all. He then tore his gaze off of Marley and went back to her stomach where the smile still stayed on his lips. He was so excited right now about the baby and he felt deep down that she knew the second when he put his hand on Marley’s stomach that the baby knew who he was. And that thought just made him beyond happy. It was funny how someone so small could just give him so much joy. It never ceased to amaze him. TAGGED marley / amber<3 NOTES i rambled so much i'm sorry.

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[marley sophia rose]

[/b] she told him with a smile but it was true, no one wanted to tell little kids no but when they became older it seemed the word no was all they heard.

With his hand on her stomach Marley couldn’t help but admire Phoenix and how happy he seemed to be to just be touching the baby through layers of tissue, fat and skin. She couldn’t imagine what it would be like when the baby was actually born and they were holding the real thing in their arms. The fact that they had sixteen weeks to go until that happened was surreal and she really couldn’t believe they were this close to bringing her into the world and despite everything that had happened she wanted Phoenix to be there when it all happened she wasn’t sure she could do it alone. When the baby kicked Phoenix lit up like a kid on Christmas and she smiled as he looked at her. ’’I know I can feel it’’ she told him with a smile. ’’give her a little bit she’ll kick you again’’ she added softly looking down at her stomach and rubbing her hand against the side. ’’Sometimes I stay up at night mostly because she keeps me up and I tell her about you ‘’ she told him looking up at him with a sigh.
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[phoenix eli harte]

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there's a wolf in my heart for you

[atrb=border,0,true] It was really funny how someone could love another person before they were even in existence. Phoenix had no idea what she looked like, what color her eyes were going to be or if she would have his nose or Marley's nose but as he felt the little person inside her kick him he instantly fell in love. It was like someone had flipped a switch inside him and he was okay with that. In fact he was more than okay. It was strange to him that was all. He bit down on his bottom lip as another smile crept onto them and he was unsure of how to process all of this. Life was obviously full of mysteries like this but Phoenix did not dare question it. At least he was in love with her right and not cursing his unborn child's existence, although he could never realty do that. It would not be fair. When Phoenix saw Marley smile, he smiled himself. He could not help it and call it silly or stupid or whatever but she really did make him smile. And just by her being here right now was making him feel a little bit better about this whole thing. Sure, he was probably being a big baby when she first left but he had not realized how much if a toll it was taking in her and he should have been paying more attention to what she wanted. Of course, he would also say that she was being hormonal and such but that was probably a typical guy answer and anyone would say that. And when she said wait until Max was a teenager Phoenix scrunched up his face once more, not liking the thought of that. "Oh god, that's going to to be a nightmare. If he's anything like me I think I need to install a lock in his window." he said, wondering if Max really would be like Phoenix or if he would be different. He could wait to find out though, he could wait a hundred years to find out he did not want his kids to ever grow up. It will be depressing to him. This was still crazy to him, the fact that his daughter hat kicked the shit out of his hand. That was good; she would probably be a fighter. So he could teach her how to protect herself when she was older. That was grand if you asked him. So when Marley said that she would probably kick again he smiled for a couple minutes. Yep, she was definitely going to be a fighter when she grew up. It would be funny to watch her kick Max's ass a little bit, at least for him. Then she would obviously get in trouble but it would still be funny. And when Marley told him that she told her about him he looked at her and smiled slightly. Well that was good right? He felt like it was a good sign. "What do you say about me?" he asked her, wondering if it was good or if it was really bad. He would take either truth be told. TAGGED marley / amber<3 NOTES i rambled so much i'm sorry.

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[marley sophia rose]

[/b] she replied softly pushing her hair back before looking down at her shoes and trying to fight the tears that were starting to well up in her eyes.

She figured then that she should probably finish her shopping and head home for some rest, besides people around the store seemed to be impatient with the fact that her and Phoenix were taking up the aisle they needed to get into. So slowly she reached up and wiped her eyes before lifting her head and offering him a weak smile. ’’I should go’’ she told him gently stepping back towards her shopping cart so his hand was no longer touching her stomach. She gripped the bar on the cart and looked him over slightly. ’’Tell Max I say hi and I’ll give you a call with an update soon’’ she added with a small smile before waving and making her way quickly towards the cashier so she could go home.
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